i lost my bestfriend

Bestfriend huh? yeah yeah. you may do anything you like. BUT what i dislike issssssss a liar. friend ship bertahun-tahun, aku ingat aku kenal kau sedalamnya. but i was wrong. aku tak kenal kau macam mana, yang aku cuma tahu kau selalu happy dengan kawan kawan kau yang lain. takda masalah apa apa. you know what? semua orang suka kawan dengan kau dan sayangkan kau. tapi apa yang kau buat dekat aku sekarang, mungkin aku bole maafkan, tapi bukan family aku, aku rasa. Babe, aku sayang kau doh. sumpah sayang. aku dah anggap kau mcm sebhgian dri hidup aku, BFF kn? like you said. sumpah sayang. why babe? why are you doin this. friendship tiba tiba stop mcm ni kot, imma still shock okay. imma still! like mama said, kadang kadang kesian dekat kau. nak tolong tapi, ada niat lain.

Tahu tak, my family semua dah accept kau sebahagian dari family. takda anggap mcm musuh or apa apa. And i know i was wrong becauseeeeeeee i wrote anything bout you in twiiter, bukan sebab nak gaduh, just wanna remind you. this is my family. Yeah, ofcause, im jealous, cause of what. here i will tell ya, i get jealous sbab abah fetch you after work and send you to melawati. abah didnt do that when i need him. he wont there to fetch me home. thats all. kau tahukan aku manja dengan abah. tapi kenapa semua kau nak cerita dekat abah? apa yang aku buat semua. kau tahu tak, sebab kauu bagithu tu lah aku tak rapat dengan abah lagi macam dulu. imma always keep telling you, if you need something, wanna share something, im always here for you! pasal peribadi aku, jangan la sampai cerita dekat abah :( im reallllllyy upsad. hm, apa yang dah jadi, aku maafkan kau. mungkin aku bukan jenis kawan yang macam kau nak. tapi niat aku baik nak tolong kau semua. dengarlah nasihat aku ni, jangan tipu orang sekeliling kau yang sayangkan kau sangat. Jangan tipu pasal nenek kau. please. aku update, bukan sebab nak aibkan kau. cuma aku taknak kau tipu orang yang sayangkan kau. please! okay? i love you friend and i miss you :(

one year and four months

hai yaya :) long time no see, sorry yaya. i am totally busy with a lots of assigmnt. sampai tak boleh jenguk awak yaya. heres the thing, i wanna tell ya something.

24th september 2012 - been through a lot of challenge. besides, you were happy with your new friends, new campus, new place, everythings new. sayang, kita dah setahum tiga bulan dah. lama nak make a relationship ni till get married. im sure, we will :') honey, just i wanna need something from you, please dont leave me. the part that i will being so weak when i just found out what you did behind me. can please, dont you dare to do it again? promise me baby? make it right please. yeah, before this i selalu ckap i tk happy dengan you cause i felt like i am standing alone. takda you. and thanks for today honey. HAPPPPPPPY! am i look happy now baby? i am kan? hm :'/ i sayang you. done.

25-01st october 2012 

HAPPY ONE YEAR AND FOUR MONTHS ANNIVERSARY HONEY♥ 

one year together :')

hai, asalammulaikumm :) hai baby love, happy 1st anniversarry. may allah bless of us :') i love you so much! so damn much. hikhik thankyou for still staying. i will keep this love untill forever and ever :) and thankyou for everything. i really appreciate it. thanks again. well, here dah one year dah kite together. dah besar. dah matang. bole fkir mana baik mana buruk. but lately kite asyik gaduh. i dont know why :( i taknak gaduh and i tak suka gaduh, its make feel like.. hmm nak cakap apa lagi kan? Allah tengah uji kite smpai mana tahap kesabaran kite dalam hubungan. sayang, actually i sayang this relationship. sayang sgt. i taknak ada apa apa yg bole halang kita. oh so blush when i say this -..- nevermind lah.i sayang you lah bie. hm :'< dulu kan you tak busy sampai mcm ni. kite okay je. tak gaduh. baik baik. selalu meet up. kata nak 24/7 ada dgn you, tapi bila i buat mcm tu, you mcm busy, sometimes late reply. yeah, myb busy. takan lah smpai read je takbole nak reply isit? i just wanna you love me and care me and all. u=i taknak ruined evertyhing yg kite dah plan. its all still on planning. marriage. family. kids. future. sorry to if i've to say this, i tak rasa bahagia. happy happy, tapi i tak nmpak my happiness tu kat mana? isit kat you or else? bie, l'll try to be the best for you. i am now. sabar. ujian. redha. pasrah. semua. sbab i terlalu sayang kan you and our relationship. sorry lah if i ni slalu buat you sakit hati. i takde niat. i know, first punca yang kite jadi mcm mcm bcause of me. i know. and you zzzup! terus berubah. you've changed. i taknak pun all that happend. kalau lah masa bole undur balik, i akan betulkan apa yg i buat tu. i takpernah lupa apa yg you cakap. bagi  :') semuanya cukup!

SORRY

boooooowwwoww!

weak

here we go, starting from now. i dah taknak halang you apa apa. im weak bila jadi mcm ni. i know i tak perfect. i know sometimes im being so rude. im know and im sorry i cant face this. this is too much. i cant :'( satu hari menangis cause of you. i dah tak larat. i wont give up, im just give in. promise me something that you cant make it is so haihhhhh :'( i cant breath, i cant eat, cause i love you much! dont you get it? nak jaga hati i pun susah. why ah? why you always be like this? i think i just gave youuuu my everything. soul, love, hug. anything! when you say you love someonr, pleaseeeee meant that! maksudkannya! bukan mainkanya! i cant accpt this, tak bole terima. till im dead!

alhamdulillah :)

hehe hai :) dah lama gila tak update. well yaya, as you know. today is my monthsary day.

well sayang, here for you. :) finally we didi it honey, we been trough a lot of challenge. and thats make me stronger sayang. here i promise you to take a good care of our relationship. i do cause i love you so much, even more than my self. right we fight, our arguements, our missunderstanding but im sure we will be fine :) thanks for everything sayang, everything that you can make me smile again. eventho youu always busy with your friends, do what ever with your friends, but its okay. i akan biasa dgn smua tu. wlaupun bnde tu kecik, and it can make me hurts tapi now dah okay :') i will give in. hm, bout promises, im pretty sure you cant make it for me. but i wanna you to think, bout your promises that you make is to marry me one day. im so hopping you can make it right. happy 11 months anniversary bie. kite dah nak one year. kalau ikutkan dah 2 years kite together and mgkin kita bole rapat now dari dulu. i sayang you b. i gave you everything. my heart, soul, love, kisses. most everything. stay strong and stay longer with me. like you said " im the one you in love with till the end of your life " make it right honey. surelly it will be come one day. thanks once again. i love you so fucking damn much! dont you dare to leave me alone. thats it. XOXO